as a child I wanted to learn to dance but we had nine kids in the family, were poor and couldn’t afford lessons so that dream was quickly squashed. but somewhere, someone heard and never forgot.
skip ahead to adulthood – the desire returned but this time it was a desire to dance for the audience of one, daddy God. but how could I, I was broken, unclean and not wanted in my hearts eyes, but I danced anyway and as i did daddy God began to heal and cleanse the brokenness inside.
i clearly remember the day daddy God reminded me of that childhood desire and told me he had never forgotten even if i had, he said “i’ll teach you, i know how to dance” and so he did. in the privacy of my lounge with curtains shut so no one would see me make a fool of myself, slowly, hesitantly, unsure of myself and him I began to dance. then came a day when i was standing in church and he asked me to dance for him in public – a battle raged within me but eventually three months later i said yes and danced. funny enough i though people would see brokenness and unsureness, what they saw and received though was healing and desire to be free like me. i had to laugh, i didn’t yet feel thaaat free but they saw something in me that they desired – it was daddys love really that they saw and they wanted it too.
now years later childhood memories no longer sting and where there were tears there is now laughter. now the child within dances free from fear and my heart knows that the words broken, unclean and not wanted no longer apply to me, instead I am whole, healed, righteoussly clean and so wanted it makes my heart want to burst with the happiness of it. no, those aren’t just words either, they are the truth of a life touched and changed by the power of my daddy God’s love.
over the next few entries i’ll share some of my poetry and stories that show my journey into love. but for today – let’s dance!
dance
spinning, arms thrown wide
i dance
laughter wells up within me
i dance
giddy with joy
i drop to the ground
but the dance goes on
inside me
the child within dances
free from fear
and shadows that taunt
she spins and leaps
and spins again
then she bows
as she ends her dance
for her audience of one.
mycreativefire 